Im listening to Coldplay right now, their song reaches me in a way that I have to stop and reflect of the things I have done in my life few years back, yesterday and a minute ago..

 

I have nothing much to say, this entry has no subject at all, just an idle time for me to write what's in my mind.

 

In Coldplay's lyrics.. it says:

 

"Tell me you love me, come back and hold me"
"Running in circle, chasing the tail"
"Nobody says it would be easy, oh its such a shame for us to part"
"Nobody says it would be easy, no one ever say it would be this hard"
" I'll take me back to the start"

 

I bet this one is just as afraid as I am to move forward instead im wishing of going back from where I feel the safest.

 

Listening to Foo Fighters, this song makes me wanna fall inlove everyday.

 

"Im on your back, if you walk  out on me, im walking after you"

 

Ahhh.. damn Im so Bored. Keeps on clicking for the next song and then smiles for awhile.. memories that passes by.. Staring at the white ceiling thinking about HIM for a sec. then go back to reality... Think, think again for tomorrow's everday so called Life..

 

Just a moment there, I thought of Thanking the Lord of the blessings he have given me, every little things he made for me.. Thank you.. God's will in due time.. Ive always believe in HIM...

 

"NOvember Rain" a lover's death.. Death of what? pain? misery? betrayal? death coz of sickness? killed? or a death of loneliness? death of being alone and not loved in return? death of being used and torn apart? so much death in this world... are you in some way have your own DEATH?

 

"Till I hear it from you"... cool and laid back song.. Don't expect nor assume, be satisfied of what you have right now.. when that happiness comes, grab it.. embrace it lightly and let it go.. keep it cool til I hear it from you.... =)

 

"When I come Around".. banging my head feels so good.. feelin this song, jumpin around and get mad with no reason at all.. letting out my anger.. deep sigh.. ahh.. what a relief!

 

"Soon"... I have to wish and dream of having you to be mine Soon... Will it always be just a dream for me? Wishful Thinking... Its said and done.. Im not the only One.. but its worth Hoping for you..

 

"The Man who Sold The World".. this guy was a waste to think of getting suicide yet a legend with his song.. A real artist.. So much love to give don't even know how to handle it..

 

Checked my celfon, reading the same messages, the conversation, qoutes, song, morning greetings, chain qoutes, and lastly seeing your Name...

 

"Here is Gone".. I dont wanna spend my day thinking of the real issue .. I wanna stay in this stage of Denial..Right now.. I will keep on imagining, dreaming that things will be alright.. things will soon be good.. no more heartaches.. no more pains.. Tired of seeing her lost and alone. tired of hearing her scream.. tired of her pain.. Stay numb Billie.. start now..